Finally free

It is such a strange feeling having my body back.  

It seems like forever since its been all mine. 

Is that selfish?

To IUD or not is the question.

According to Google you can remove your IUD by yourself. 

Hmmmm....  

I watched videos and read testimonials about how easy it is and how it's the same as how a Dr. takes it out.  

Makes me wonder if its worth it.  I've been having issues with mine and it lately hasn't seemed worth it and J hates that I have it.  He worries about it and he can't help but be nervous about how it works.  If you read about the IUD they aren't really sure how it prevents pregnancy.  

Sure, we definitely DO NOT want to get pregnant anytime soon we for sure want to wait till next summer.  I think we can be responsible if we need to.  I actually kind of look forward to not having any hormones added to my body.   I was on BC for 4 years before Ry and then breastfed so I haven't been. "Me" in a long time.

Might be nice. :)

Cheese and pickle sandwiches

So here we are, day three of not pumping.  Let me tell you, weaning is way more emotional than they tell you about. 

Today my breasts were more full than they have been in weeks.  How ironic right?  

There were moments that when I was carrying Ry that it felt like they might actually burst.  

I had a few moments of "maybe I should start pumping again, maybe my milk is back" and I would  mention it to J and he would bring me back to reality and make me remember that it's been weeks that we have been trying to pump enough for a meal at a time.  He has been so wonderful through out this process, so supportive and so understanding. Even when I've started crying when pumping or bottle feeding our girl.  

Feeling very blessed this evening.